It is Sunday morning. Chuck is still asleep. And I am feeling pretty low.
Friday I had an appointment for a pedicure. A luxury in a time I should be saving. Well, I guess it wasn't meant to be because the van had a flat. Chuck dropped off the tire at the store and went for his chiropractor appointment and 2 hour massage.
While he was gone I tried Jillian Michael's Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism. It is 40 minutes of crazy high impact, high intensity Jillian madness. It's pretty advanced and I felt like I was going to die. I made it through the DVD but there were times that I just could not keep up with the exercises. I also injured my hamstring in the process. Yay, me.
Also did Leslie Sansone 4 mile walk. I think it's about 55 minutes. So I did get a lot of exercise in Friday.
That night we went out for gyros. I ordered potatoes instead of fries (trying to make at least one good choice here) but the potatoes were so fatty and buttery and had an "off" taste to them. I only had a couple of bites. I did have a baklava for dessert.
Afterwards we went to see The Proposal which is hilarious and I recommend it. Great movie. But they had a preview for a new movie coming out called Old Dogs that had everyone in the theater laughing so hard including me. I can't wait to see that one.
Got home and had a sugar free margarita. Trying to be a little good with my rita making it sugar free. Then I got munchies and the pretzels and caramel rice cakes made an appearance. Not good, Kelly.
Saturday morning started out fine...good breakfast. Went to Chuck's IDPA shooting match and he came in first in accuracy but didn't do as well in speed. It was way too hot to be running around out there. He had an issue with the heat and almost blacked out. It was pretty serious. What makes me mad is that he didn't tell me until afterwards that he was having trouble.
Stop to get him some food and get hydrated quickly at (not the best choice, Kelly) Casa Ole. Crap. No I didn't do good here. It's not like I don't know that this stuff is fattening and unhealthy. So why do I do it?
The dudes at the tire store put my tire on backwards (I didn't even realize that was an option) so we had to go by there and get that changed out. Then to REI where I drooled over backpacks and imagined myself hiking rim to rim of the Grand Canyon. ahhhh. Tried out a Thermarest pad and compared weights of tents. One day I'll be a backpacker. I was happy to see another full figured lady there trying on daypacks. Usually the only people who shop there are skinny and in great shape. I always feel a little out of place.
Things went further downhill for me when we went to the Kemah boardwalk on a very nice date. It was such a beautiful evening strolling together hand in hand. We ate a Louisiana inspired restaurant called Babin's. For an appetizer we tried fried alligator. Though it was very good I could not help but think about all of my alligator friends at Brazos Bend. :( I also had a martini, Greek salad, baked sweet potato and blackened amberjack with a lump crab meat sauce. OMG, so delicious. For dessert I had a very small glass of drambuie.
And now we are caught up. And I feel pretty crappy. I got on the scale and it showed a 4 pound gain. Just typing that makes my face turn red with embarrassment. If I know something is a bad choice and I'll regret it later then why do I make that choice anyway? It doesn't make sense.
I'm sorry this post is such a downer. I thought it would be good therapy for me. I can't pity myself because it's my own fault. The only one who can change anything is me. That's it. I just have to eat correctly and exercise. That's the secret to weight loss in case you are interested. Doing it is the problem. You either do it or you don't.
I expect to utterly fail my half pound challenge. There will be a gain. But right now, at this moment, I am rededicating myself to working hard at getting this weight off. I can't half-ass it anymore.
What a struggle this is. If you've made it this far you deserve a medal. Thanks for hanging with me and listening to me whine. I'm sure the next post will be more "me" and upbeat.
A couple of good things: We get the kids today and the lady at REI suggested I try a size MEDIUM pack. I was expecting her to say they didn't carry my size. :)