Woke up Tuesday in pain! That Turbo Jam did a number on my abs and back. It wasn't an injury pain in my back but a muscle soreness. My back! That's not exactly an area I think about working out but it sure got it yesterday.
Breakfast: CarbCheck Cinnamon Swirl Bagel with FF strawberry cream cheese (no Rock Star)
Charlie had PE at the Y and I needed to decide what workout I would do while he was busy playing volleyball. Weights or C25K? I was already sore. Today would be the 20 minute run for C25K and I was dreading it. What if I failed?
I decided to try the run. I usually chose a treadmill so that no one is on either side of me. Not today. I eyed the line of people walking and/or jogging to see which would have to endure my heavy breathing and sweat flying. There, that guy minding his own business would be my victim. He was walking and doing 20 second jogs.
I lay my keys on the platform of the treadmill. Get my sweat rag situated. Find my C25K podcast on the MP3 player. Rearrange the keys and sweat rag again. (Come on, Kelly. You can't put it off. Push "Start.")
The treadmill starts and I'm on my way. My back and abs are yelling at me to just stop and take a day off but what do they know? They're lazy. Time flies by and my 5 minute warm up walk is over. So soon?! Usually it seems to take longer on other days. I feel my pulse quicken as I know what's coming up. 20 minutes. Nonstop.
I push the button to speed the belt to 4.5 mph. No, that doesn't feel right. It's hard to get a good pace going at that speed. 4.6? Just a little faster. Don't want to overdo it. I actually want to succeed at this! 4.7 mph will have to do for now.
I watch the little digital readout count down the tenths of a mile. It gives me something to do. Pretty soon 5 minutes have gone by. Can I keep going for another 15 minutes?! Then 10 minutes. Hey! I'm halfway done! 10 minutes more? Surely I can do that!
Somewhere along the way I notice that I am close to reaching a HUGE milestone (literally): running 1 mile. This is something that I have dreamed about. It's something that I've wanted for a few years. When I first started my weight loss journey it was difficult to walk around the block. My back hurt all of the time and my feet would swell. After losing a few pounds I tried to jog but even 12 seconds was difficult. And here I finally was, about to run that mile that I had talked about for so long.
.98 of a mile. .99 of a mile. Then it was there. 1 mile. I did it!!! I reached that goal that I had wondered if I would ever reach! 1.01. 1.02. Wait a minute! I just reached a monumental occasion and now it's gone! I've moved on. Where's the parade and high fives? Where are the tears of joy I knew I'd cry? 1.04 You mean life keeps moving forward after I reach a goal?! But I didn't even get to roll around in the moment!
The 20 minute run was finally complete. At the end of it all I had raised the speed to 4.8mph and ran 1.56 miles. I exceeded my goal by a half mile. I did my 5 minute cool down walk then stopped the treadmill and dripped some sweat. So that was it. It was a surreal moment in time. I had reached a goal that I wanted so bad I could taste it but life just kept moving forward.
It got me wondering about my weight loss goal. What happens when I reach that goal? The goal of all goals. The next day I'd wake up and life would still be the same. It will move forward and I'll exercise as usual and eat the foods I always eat. It's a sobering thought. I will not automatically be happier or wealthier or prettier. It will be another goal reached and life moves on.
To tell you the truth, it takes a load off of my mind. It makes the goal not seem so urgent. I'll get there. I know I will. But then what? I guess I'll just set new goals. Probably more fitness related like running that mile was.
I remember when I was a kid I always thought it strange that when someone (or a pet) died that the world just kept right on moving forward. It doesn't stop for anyone. People went on with their daily lives. The sun still shined brightly. I got that same strange feeling when I ran that mile. The world keeps on moving and I keep moving with it. Forward towards new goals. Nothing magically changed in my life. Except maybe I'm a little more confident. :)
As a little celebration I took Charlie to Freebirds to get some lunch to go. Love this place. Notice that the cup says "It's Not Normal." LOL Maybe that's why I love it so much!
After lunch it kind of hit me what I had done on the treadmill and I did shed a few tears of joy. I couldn't help it. There were just so many times that I thought I would never be able to run a mile. You guys were always so encouraging and told me that I could do it but I had my doubts from time to time. Now I guess my goal is to run 2 miles!
Time for more exercise: Turbo Jam Learn and Burn. Holy sore abs, Batman! I felt every zig and zag today. But I got it done.
Weather was turning nasty so I had to rush to the grocery store. Got to Kroger and they were out of chicken. Come on! How can you be out of chicken?! Apparently there was a sale on chicken and I missed it. They only had frozen chicken or the huge family packs. I just wanted a regular pack, darn it.
To top things off, it was like the universe gave me the finger. Almost every time I touched something, stuff would fall. Needed some zucchini and a bunch fell on the ground. I started an apple avalanche when I reached for a granny smith. Cans of refried beans fell over when I reached for one can. It was crazy. At one time I even said out loud, "Oh come on!!!"
Drove to HEB for some chicken and protein powder and as soon as I find a parking space my low fuel light comes on. And it's raining. Sideways. Get my chicken, protein powder, wine (I think I need it) and Attune bars and check out. I love eclectic grocery carts like that. LOL Got some fuel in the rain and headed home to unload my loot.
Dinner was spaghetti made with Barilla Plus, sauce and turkey meat; salad; Lite garlic toast. Comfort food. :)
Then for my Attune bar and a glass of therapy (I got the glass in San Antonio). Loved the name of the wine.
It was a great day. It really was. I'm still in shock that I've reach that goal.
Calories Burned: 2798
Calorie Intake: 1748 (a little higher than usual but I think I needed it)
I received some blog love!!
Thanks so much to The Next Biggest Loser for my Sunshine Award. Love it. :)
Now I have to pass it on to 12 other bloggers who bring sunshine into my life. I hate choosing. I always feel like I leave someone out who should be chosen. Look to the right of my blog. See that blogroll? They're all worthy of this reward. Truly.
Here are just a few of the ones I enjoy:
1. Jack Sh*t
2. My Journey to Fit
3. Not Just Celery
4. A Journey to Thin
5. Finding Radiance
6. The Fat Chick Weigh
7. A Daunting Tale of Scale Warfare
8. Fight Fat Phobia
9. Loser for Life
10. My Road to Weight Loss
11. Carb Tripper
12. Angela's Grand Adventures
Even though only 12 are listed, you know I love all of your blogs. :)
And Angels of Angela's Grand Adventures awarded me the Beautiful Blogger award! Thanks!
I have to list 7 things about myself then pass it on to 7 bloggers.
1. I ran a 1.56 miles. LOL Still pretty excited about that one.
2. I have no fashion sense at all.
3. I have a weak spot for birds.
4. I'm not very good in social situations. Don't like crowds.
5. I carry a gun. Yes, I have a permit. :)
6. My 20 year anniversary is in October
7. I feel people judge me because of my weight. Trying to get over that.
Now pass it on! :)
1. Running is Funny
3. Fat Free Me
5. Weight Watcher Wannabe
6. Leading the Weigh
7. TJs Test Kitchen
8. Excuses Don't Burn Calories