April has not been a glorious month of weight loss for me. I've been a slacker. There, I admit it. But I have maintained my 190 pounds quite nicely, thank you very much.
Monday I took the kids (including my niece who is spending the week with us) to Brazos Bend State Park for a little hike. It turned into a nice 5 mile hike where we saw all kinds of neat stuff: alligators, bullfrogs, birds, beautiful flowers, blackberries growing wild.
At one point there were three alligators in the path. I wasn't exactly sure what to do. Me, being the Miss Adventure that I am, shooed a gator away. It got up and moved a little out of the way then just layed down with his legs spread out. He made it clear that he didn't want anything to do with us.
There was another part where a very large alligator way trying to sleep on the trail and another was just coming out of the water behind it, which meant we had to walk between two very large gators. When I say very large I mean about 10 feet. That's pretty big to me. But they weren't interested in us either. One of them even closed his eyes and went to sleep. Awwww, cute scary lizard. I shot a video of the whole thing. It was like Walking with Dinosaurs home edition.
Also saw birds eating crawfish, bullfrogs hopping across a path and even one alligator bellowing. Very cool stuff.
At the end of it all, the kids were pretty tired. I think I heard someone snoring from the back seat on the way home.
Tuesday we did school most of the day and then it was time to take Rachel to her dance workshop. She is learning how to two step, jitterbug, and other fun stuff. Some of the girls like to dance barefoot so Rachel thought she would try that too. It probably works out well if your partner knows how to dance. If he doesn't, you end up with a bleeding toe and a crushed toenail. Poor Rachel.
While she was in dance class I took the kids to a scenic park and walked around. It was such a gorgeous day.
Tuesday I was feeling really low about weight loss, exercising....really everything. I even caught myself making negative comments. "I'll never lose this weight so why bother." I was feeling defeated and I'm not really sure why. Was it the scale that seems to go no lower than 190? Was it that I haven't exercised on a regular schedule? What was it? I had some sweet tea vodka and a piece of fudge.
I just felt so poorly about myself and I have no idea why. Biggest Loser was a help. I felt so motivated after watching that. It kind of slapped me back into the right frame of mind. I needed that.
Wednesday: Today I am feeling optimistic again. I am looking forward to May so I can start with a clean slate and make a new start. A renewed dedication to keeping on schedule and watching every single thing that goes into my mouth and losing weight.
Is there anyone else out there that needs May to be a clean slate? A new start? A renewed dedication? You're free to join me and we can encourage each other along the way. Let's face it: weight loss has got to be one of the most difficult goals to achieve. But we can do it! It's not easy but it is worth it.