My mom came for a visit on May 14th. While we were talking she told me that while she was cutting my grandmother's hair (her MIL), the old coot reached over with a finger and poked her belly fat then shook her head in disgust. Then she asked my mom if I had gained weight too. My mom said, "No. She runs a lot and runs 5Ks." Then my grandmother says, "But is she fat?"
I haven't seen my grandmother in years. She has never been my biggest fan and it used to bother me as a kid. She would do things to make sure I knew that she didn't like me. For instance, at Christmas she would give all of the grandkids some money but leave me out. On purpose! She would also make comments from time to time. And it hurt.
What's weird is that her other granddaughter (my half sister) is overweight but that's ok. She likes her.
Mean people suck!!!
The whole thing messed with my head a little and brought back a grab bag of emotions and insecurities. I stopped wearing my bodybugg, stopped counting calories, stopped running and stopped caring for about a week. I was in my own little depression.
Chuck, my biggest support, made a comment before we went to sleep one night and it really brought me back around: "Please don't give up." Something about the way he said it. It kind of snapped me out of my little funk and helped me come back to myself.
I'm glad I took that time off from running now because the back of my knee is no longer hurting. Yeah! At least some good did come out of it. :)
I'm back to wearing the bodybugg and running now. Sorry for the little disappearing act and little pity party episode. Why are relatives so good at messing with our minds?
Here are a few things that have happened since I last posted:
*Mother and niece and nephew came for a weekend visit
*Rachel baked a birthday cake for niece with a shih tzu on it
*started the Houston Nature Challenge at the kickoff at Discovery Green on a rainy Saturday
*Charlie laughed so hard on that road trip that chocolate malt came out of his nose
*had two different snakes come into my backyard. Both yellow bellied water snakes.
*pet a baby alligator
*ate a bacon and cheese flavored cricket
*went mother/daughter geocaching
*taught the kids about ancient Greece then took them to see Clash of the Titans in 3D (it was not 3D and I don't think it was historically accurate)
*Ran 5 miles (1:1 ratio of walk/run)
Even though I was in a little funk, I stayed pretty busy. :)
My birthday is this Friday. May 28th. Chuck is taking me on our first overnight canoe trip. We will be sleeping on a sandbar without electricity! I'm a little nervous and very excited. This week I'll be getting ready for that but still finding time for exercise and teaching the kids.
I'd like to say a big THANKS to Shelley for checking in on me. It's nice to have people who worry about you when you disappear. :)
**EDIT: 1 (1.4 gram) box of crickets is 9 calories, 1 gram of fat, .2g carbs and .5 g protein.