So far this month I'm at a 13.7 pound loss. Yeah. That's epic.
Even better? I'm not taking any of my meds. No thyroid. No metformin. Only a couple of supplements like vitamins and alpha lipoic acid, etc.
I have an appointment with my gynecologist/endocrinologist (yes, he's a multitasker...and a lawyer too...overachiever....graduated from Yale and Harvard) in April. I want to prove to him that I can lose weight without all of the prescriptions. He told me it was almost impossible and I really want to prove him wrong. Silly? Maybe. I just don't want to have a ton of prescriptions. He's already not happy with me for discontinuing birth control. And he insisted that I will take metformin but it makes me feel like I'm knocking on Death's door. Hate it. And I'm out of thyroid meds so here I am.
Not only am I losing weight but I can feel my thyroid or metabolism kicking in. I don't get so cold anymore. Hair loss has slowed down. I feel warm inside. Something is happening and it's good! Now I'm anxious to get blood work done to see how that looks.
So far the experiment is working. I'm still learning a lot and it will take more than a month of experimenting to perfect it. And this is for my body. You may react differently.
Since losing the equivalent of almost 14 boxes of butter this month, my clothes are fitting a bit more loosely. As in I can pull my pants off without unbuttoning them. It's awesome but I don't see a difference in the mirror and it's driving me a bit crazy. I want to see a difference!
Even when I was a skinny girl, I always felt chubby. 5'7" and weighing 120-125 pounds I still felt big. I still hated being seen in a swimsuit. Crazy!
While I'm shedding pounds I'm trying to shed that negative self image. It's not easy! I've read about people who have lost a lot of weight but still see themselves as heavy. I don't want to be like that but I don't know how to change the way I view myself. No clue how to even start! Is there a 12 step program? I've never thought of myself as pretty or anything like that. I don't hate myself but I don't see anything special in the mirror either.
Oh well. This post is really just a mind dump for me. Spilling things that are on my mind.
My focus is on
- getting healthy
- getting off prescription meds
- build muscle
- fit in size 8
Self love. I'll worry about that one later. ;)
In other news, yesterday was another round of 3.1 for 31 days. I don't know if you saw Houston weather on tv but there was a tornado spotted near us. Yeah. And heavy rains. But I am committed to this so Chuck and I went for our walk anyway. And it rained.
I always see something interesting while on these 5ks. Yesterday, even though it was raining, a kitty decided to walk with us for about a quarter mile. In the rain!
Did you notice that there is no rain in the picture? That's because this was taken a different day. Same kitty though. I just forgot to post this picture. But that kitty greets us and runs along with us. It's cute. :)
Also, I had the honor of being voted a motivational person on Sparkpeople.com! Wow. That makes me want to try even harder to reach my goals.
So far so good. Lost 1.5 pounds yesterday. Yay!! Onward and downward.