Even though the scale has been showing a downward trend I'm feeling big. Clothes are fitting better but I still feel huge and I just hate that. I guess it happens. I have a case of the fats. I haven't felt pretty at all.
Right now I don't like how I look in jeans, dresses, shorts, anything. I'm sure it'll get better and I need to be kind to myself and remember how far I've come instead of how far I have to go. Attitude, right? We are our own worst critics and I'm going to make an effort to stop being so hard on myself. Enough is enough. I won't let anyone else put me down so why should I allow myself to do it? Right.
Sorry I didn't get to post on Friday like I said I was. As soon as I got up I had to get ready and head out the door for a doctor's appointment. But Thursday night was certainly something to write about!
I had trouble falling asleep because I've had a muscle spasm in my left shoulder. I finally fall asleep and an owl starts hooting outside my window. An owl. I've never heard an owl out here. Then Chuck rolls over in his sleep and gives me a karate chop to the hurting shoulder. I couldn't help but laugh at that point. Seriously? An owl and a punch to the shoulder?
A visit to the doctor Friday and I get some muscle relaxers that are helping to stop the spasm. Yay!! Finally some sleep.
While I was out, I stopped by a donut shop that also serves breakfast tacos. I ordered a bacon, egg, cheese and jalapeno burrito and told them to keep the tortilla and just dump it in a bowl. Tada! Topped with some green salsa it was spicy!
And an espresso. Because some days you just need it.
It has been so gloomy lately. If it's not raining it's overcast. Thursday I was out in some pretty bad rains. Hard to see it in the picture.
Over the weekend we had all reached our limit at staying indoors so even though it was gross outside we still went out to Brazos Bend State Park for a while just to get out of the house.
There were so many vultures flying overhead!
Ibis looking for food.
Even though we didn't stay long it was nice to get out.
One thing about the hazy days is that you begin to feel a little groggy. Coffee was flowing.
Breakfasts have been this.....
....and this. Nothing spectacular but it fills the void.
Lunches and dinners have been things like curry...
baked pork loin over riced cauliflower.
I did have a "free" meal as an experiment to see if I can have one per week and still lose weight. I'll be doing the same for the next couple of weeks to see how it works out.
I know some are against "cheat" meals and that's ok by me. I'm toying with the idea because I think it will make this long haul a bit more bearable. The idea is that I won't feel deprived and can stick with this. If I am jonesing for a brownie I just tell myself that I can have it with my free meal instead of saying that I can't have one until I reach my goal.
Again, I'm not even suggesting this is the ideal way but I'm trying it to see if it will work for me.
As you can see, I'm not strictly Whole30 compliant. Did you see the cheese? And a free meal is definitely not the Whole30 way. I don't care. I'm just trying to find what works best for me. So far so good.
Looking through Pinterest, which I just figured out how to use and which you should never look at if you're hungry, I stumbled across this picture.
Wow! I wondered if it was real and did some searching. Turns out it is real! This guy had cancer but he still decided to make a change. Amazing!
So no excuses. I guess I can't even complain about the weather being too cold or the rain if I have exercise DVDs and a set of weights.
Happy Monday to you all! It's time for this girl to get busy in the exercise department. Again.
Wednesday I'll have weigh in and a killer crockpot recipe.